Desi e frustrant sa vezi cum un plan visat de atatea ori se naruie, incerc sa imi controlez vulcanitatea si sa analizez situatia la rece (la propriu, am facut un dus rece sa imi ies din moleseala deprima(n)ta).
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Astfel ca asta e un post personal, again, si se adreseaza persoanei in cauza, restul puteti sa sariti peste el. Postul trecut l-am sters, strica tot Zen-ul blogului. :P
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So, hey... I really felt bad for being such a bitch the other evening. It's just that I also feel the connective energy and I was pissed that I wouldn't get to feel the actual flesh-and-bones YOU... I know I overreacted, but that's just me. And now I'm pissed on myself for kicking another chance for happiness.
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Yesterday I was talking to a friend who has a pretty good comforting skill. And when I told him what my problem was he simply said "Okay, you need to be beaten up really bad". I didn't quite get the idea, though I knew I was the one who fucked up, but I didn't think I actually deserved a beating. Anyway, he said he would personally come to Hateg with a baseball bat and kick my ass bloody until I was on the next Normandia to Tm.
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This morning, I was 5 minutes away from coming to Tm. 5 BLOODY MINUTES !! I was going to call you and say that I was sending you something by Normandia through a friend and ask you to go meet her. And I was only going to say "hug me, dumbass" when I got out of the bus. But the bus left right before I even got into the station. And I'm still in Hateg...
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I really wished I could have made it through this entire late-at-night-developed plan and say "I'm sorry" in a more convinving way, but it seems luck is never gonna be by my side, unless I keep it on a leash. And if that means accepting your decisions even if I disapprove them, very well. I should've done that from the very beggining, without any comments.
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This post is for you and eventhough it isn't as impressive as an actual trip to you would have been, it's my (Plan B) way of saying "I really need you in my life and I'm sorry I'm such a bitch"...
